- March '1999

I know relationships sometimes don't turn out the way we have wanted. Sometimes there may be feelings of hatred towards the other party - especially just after a breakup. But we should think that at the least, both parties HAD worked hard for the relationship before and HAD spent some happy moments together. So although it might have been difficult but we have had to accept such rejections and failures.

When I reflected upon the relationship between me and her, I couldn't find any real happiness and efforts for love [*] [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] [7] from her at all - which was why I had wanted to break up with her many times. SHE WAS NOT EVEN A FRIEND [1] [2]!!! For every little laughter and joy I managed to get, they came at a price - and a high one. I can remember the many tantrums [1] [2] [3] [4] that she threw and especially the betrayals [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] that she committed. She didn't show any concern for the sleep problems [1] [2] [3] [4] that I told her about - on some days, she wasn't even there for me and not even moral support from her [1] [2] in times of troubles.

Worst of all, the time when she eventually broke up with me, it was just after she had made an improper proposal to me [1] [2] and also not long after I had gone back to her when she had used her health to take me back. I tried to accept her apparent resolve for a break-up and even offered her friendship [1] [2] many times. In the spirit of Christmas [1], I had hoped she would give me friendship [1] [2], but she refused - very bad Christmas for me [1]. So be it! However, just because the company dangled a fat carrot before her, she sent me a political voicemail [*] [VoiceMail Rec 1/4] [VoiceMail Rec 2/4] [VoiceMail Rec 3/4] [VoiceMail Rec 4/4] to ask for friendship [1] [2]. And very bad New Year Day for me as well! And she said she was going for ROM on Valentine's Day! So soon and sudden! How hurtful! And how longgg the hurts had taken place - 2 months! Well, she could have talked to me (I have always cared for her anyway) and showed some sincerity [1] (there was none AT ALL!).

When someone, whom we know, had a BGR problem recently, she had told me that a breakup can be sooo traumatic! But she did this to me?!

She had encouraged me [*] [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] [7] [8] [9] [10] [11] [12] [13] [14] [15] [16] [17] [18] [19] [20] [21] and taken me back everytime [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] [7] [8] [9] [10] [11] I had wanted to ignore her.

I'm very sad. I was confused (or should I say I was harrassed by her ?) by her not long after I joined the company. I tried to keep my distance. Friends even said I was taking too long to woo a girl. But I was shy and very scared. She appeared to be playing hard to get but she kept encouraging me. I was very troubled. She appeared to be a very nice girl then. I could only tell myself to immerse fully in my work and let nature takes its own course. I didn't dare to tell my other colleagues for fear of mixing personal feelings with work. I was afraid she might misunderstand me for spreading rumours about her interest in me. On the other hand, she was actually setting me up in her game ! She spread rumours about my interest in her and she even betrayed me [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] in front of our colleagues.

She always want to win ! It seems the whole world must revolve around her ! She wanted attention ! And she didn't care how she was going to win the attention she was after. Right from the start, she had lied about me being the second person who knew about her supposed health problems. She wanted MAXIMUM attention!

Now I have lost my love [*] [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] [7]. I also have no confidence and trust in her as a colleague because of her past betrayals [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] at the workplace, and her general conduct she showed me especially towards the end of the relationship.

She got married in a haste! Even though she had talked about marriage [1] (e.g. she would like to be dressed in a back-revealing wedding dress) and a future with me before. I only hope she can work hard on maintaining their marriage [1] and they can always remember the marriage [1] vows they have exchanged among themselves.

It was her intention to dump me in an indiscreet manner to hurt me (so as to leave a strong impression ?) in the first place. But her change of mind to stay in the job made me felt that she was putting me through an ordeal which she felt I would not be able to pull through. And she felt I had to quit eventually? And she would be VERY happy about it?

My job means a lot to me - especially now! I see her as a threat - I do not wish to continue to be in her game [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6]. And she seems to see me as a threat [1] also. But I had never betrayed her and she had betrayed [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] me more than once! Thus, I had decided to expose her [1] [2] to our superior.

She did not have any respect [1] [2] for me at all. She should let me go! In life, we can't always turn back to something which we have already given up. And especially in a relationship such as ours, it was very cruel and humiliating to me when she turned back and 'offered her friendship' finally - not because she meant it but BECAUSE OF HER MATERIALISM! [1] [2]

I perceived that she had used information she had gotten about me in her role as a HR Officer on me. Well, she did say it was daring of me to be going with her!

Moreover, the breakup initiated by her was treated like a game [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6]. And I ended up feeling so hurt ! Those were unnecessary hurts she inflicted on me in return for all the considerateness [1] [2] [3], care, and concern towards her !

Can anyone condone such actions actually ? It's not just about someone who played with relationships but what she had done after hurting him ! And that is the basis for getting over her ...